Pregnant until proven otherwise!

Yes…it’s true, I am indeed pregnant! It feels so weird to say that outloud, it’s such a new thing to me that I almost don’t believe it. I’m not jumping with excitement just yet b/c we still have many hurdles to cross but I am so grateful that I have been given a second chance at this whole motherhood fiasco 🙂 It’s been a long 8 years and I’m so excited to start our family…just hoping this little Garcia will stay and not leave me too soon!! We’re praying hard and taking TONS of meds to keep him/her growing strong. As of today I am 5wks 2days and we have another hcg draw on Thursday so keeping our fingers crossed and praying hard that Friday will have a happy ending!

March 2 (9dpo): BFN (and I was totally expecting the worse for this cycle)
March 5 (12dpo): BFP!! (we agreed to take a test this day even though I wasn’t expecting anything to come from it)
March 7 (14dpo): 1st HCG @ 45 (and I took another test and the line was getting lighter so I was assuming we were loosing little one quick and I was mentally preparing myself for the worse)
March 10 (17dpo): 2nd HCG @ 175 (it doubled in 35 hours!! Much less than the minimum of 48-72hrs)
March 17 (5w4d): 3rd HCG @ …I’m waiting patiently, but still so very nervous!

I’m having full on symptoms and much faster than the last little Garcia so I’m taking that as a good sign but still so very anxious and I want to get excited but I also don’t want to be in pain (although I know I will) if the worst is going to happen, God forbid!! As for now I am ‘pregnant until proven otherwise’ and I’m sticking to it! Last week (4wks) I started cramping a little bit but was told by many of seasoned mothers that this is normal and my back has been achy since before I found out. I also started getting ‘slightly nauseated’ and it’s typicallly when I’m hungry but it’s something I never felt before so I’m glad I’m uncomfortable, thank you God!!

We’re not officially announcing it to the world of fb (all our friends and family) until we hear the heartbeat but as of now the most important people know and if anything goes wrong I know I’ll have a support system set up for me asap. The hubbs is going away to work for a few months without me so I’ll be holding down the fort alone with little one so this may be more emotional than the usual!

I’m so thankful to my God, He’s too good to me and I’m not deserving but ever so grateful. I have prayed for this child for so long, and I know there are so many that have prayed for our litte one too that this is truly a miracle. A miracle can’t even explain it, it’s so much more than a miracle, something we never expected. God is good. This is what holds me together: Isaiah 43:2. To my IF ladies, please don’t loose hope that a miracle can happen. I am living proof that it’s possible, 5 years ago our doctor told us there was no hope that I would never conceive and I believed her, dumbly…and 5yrs later it’s happened twice! This miracle is to glorify Him, and Him alone…it’s not for me, it’s for Him. If I have to give this little one to Him too early at least I know that miracles can happen and that I should never loose the faith that has brought me this far. Selfishly I don’t want to but I have to have faith that His plan is greater than my own.

From http://www.thebump.com they have cute tickers…not sure which one I like the most!
 BabyFetus Ticker

 BabyFruit Ticker

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2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Amanda
    Mar 15, 2011 @ 23:55:09

    Congrats!!!

    Reply

  2. Rena
    Mar 16, 2011 @ 14:21:21

    Thanks! I hope all is well with you…I saw your post.

    Reply

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