Awesome friends

I am seriously blessed to have such wonderful people in my life, there are a few that stay in the background but those who really push to be a part of my life are simply amazing. I got a text yesterday from a sweet woman asking me if I wanted a cradle! Funny thing is that I’ve been searching antique malls, online, craigslist and just couldn’t find anything worth paying what people were charging and/or I’m just too cheap for anything nice. Well it’s gorgeous, in perfect shape and old…which makes it awesome in my books! I picked it up last night and we talked for hours, seriously hours but I learned so much about what’s to come. This is the beauty, yes it’s still in my car, but it will soon make it’s way inside to get ready for some measurements. It’s supposedly German and the regular stuff that fits inside is all the wrong measurements so I’ll be pretty busy sewing, but this way it can be all custom and cute. She only offered it to me, it was special to her and she didn’t want to get rid of it, and only me so I will give it a good home 🙂 Thank you Angel, I love it!

Today is my last pill!! That in itself is ubber exciting. I’m really excited that I finally get to use the Intelligender, I’ll pick one up next week. I totally think it’s a boy and I’m about 60% sure, but there’s always that chance it’s a girl. My family is pretty much split, half for boy and half for girl…but the hubbs and I are thankful we’ve gotten this far! As soon as I can do the Intelligender I’ll post my pee pics 🙂

1 Progesterone tab + 10 days = Intelligender


A 25!!

So, I got the call back from the doc…my Progesterone test came back at a 25!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Last month it was an 18.4 so this is great news and I’m so extatic! I can’t stop smiling. That just made my day (I get to prego test next week)….I can’t wait!

Vampire Doctors

Well at least that’s how I feel with them sucking blood from me every chance they get!! I had my Progesterone test today and I’ll call Monday for results. Let’s pray for big numbers!!! Last month was an 18 so I’m hoping for something close. I was a bit confused b/c my monitor told me I ovulated on cd17 but fertility friend told me I ovulated on cd18, not sure what’s going on but if I did indeed ovulate on cd18 I don’t think we caught the eggo. So as you can tell my hopes are down and I’m not feeling like we won the baby lottery this month…so we’ll see. Here’s another pic of the beautiful blood sucking:Vampires!

Progesterone Test #2

#2Everything is good so far today and I’m in high hopes for this cycle… really! I know that I’m typically ‘Debbie Downer’ but for some odd reason today I’m looking on the brighter side of things, lol! So I went in and the lady that usually takes my blood wasn’t there but this other girl was really nice and she told me that it took her and her husband 12 years!! Wow…I don’t think I could last that long. Who knows, in only 6 more years that’ll be us. She said they had been trying for what seemed like forever and she finally gave up (the typical response to my IF) and they got pregnant. I only wish people understood us but they seem to be far-and-in-between. Her response didn’t annoy me as much as it typically would. As I was leaving she said you’re gonna get pregnant, I know it…come back to see us when you do! ARGH!

To another note, I read this on a forum I read occasionally and I literally lauged out loud! It’s a survival kit/guide to being an IF woman’s friend…enjoy as did I!

1. Good Friends never judge. Remember that unless you’ve walked in the person’s shoes, you can’t say “well I would never….do IVF/terminate a pg/spend so much money on ART etc” To be honest, who likes judgmental people any way.
2. Good Friends will educate themselves about what their Infertile is going through. HUGE proviso: see point 3 before putting any thing into action. Read up about infertility so that you get a high-level understanding of the intricacies involved. Know little things like eggs are retrieved, then fertilized and they become embryos. Then the embryos are put back. Just small things so that when your infertile does share some of her world with you, you will understand. I think this shows commitment to the friendship.
3. However. Do not willy nilly offer advice, or hot off the press latest research about a fantastic new procedure that is sure to work. Remember the stuff they write about in your local woman’s magazine is stuff that your Infertile did in Infertility 101. Been there, failed that. ICSI is not a new procedure, I promise. And yes, we have heard of taking cough syrup to increase cervical mucous. Oh, and for my Aunt, yes I have heard of lying with my legs in the air after having sex. Unfortunately, I have PCO and don’t ovulate so I could be lying with my legs in the air doing bicycle movements till the cows come home and all the sperm are going to do is mill around confused asking where the fuck the egg is, bemoaning the fact that this has been a useless trip out and they might as well have had a wank. Which goes back to Point 2. Educate yourself about your friend’s diagnosis so that you can avoid offering pointless advice. And please, what ever you do, never, ever be so stupid as to say “just relax”. Would you say to a cancer patient “just relax”? Would you say to someone who can’t see “just relax”? Of course you wouldn’t. Plus you have to know that “just relaxing” will not change the medical diagnosis that is causing your friends infertility. Because of course you’ve done enough reading to carry on an intelligent conversation, if your Infertile decides to engage you in one.
4. Platitudes. Never ever offer platitudes. This is a totally selfish act any way because all platitudes do is make you feel better and the Infertile feel worse. Saying “maybe you are not meant to have children” is an incredibly stupid thing to say. You wouldn’t say to a diabetic “maybe you weren’t meant to have insulin etc”. Infertility is a medical condition. Not some factor in the universe’s bigger plan for the Infertile. Similar to “its God will”. How do you know? You have a direct connection or what? How about “are you sure you want kids?” lovingly looking at your own screaming kids. No dear, I am spending thousands and enduring physical, emotional and mental anguish just because I am obscenely stupid. Or “you can have mine”. Now that’s an incredibly stupid thing to say. What kind of mother are you to give her kids away? Oh you were only joking? What was the funny part? That I don’t have my own kids? Sorry, but I am not getting the joke? Call me stupid. In addition, please don’t tell me about your friend/cousin/co-worker who got pg naturally after 8 years of trying. It doesn’t make me feel better, it depresses me. Good for her. It’s got nothing to do with my situation.
5. The tricky one. Announcing pregnancies / baby showers / births and other kid things. The best advice I can give here is trust the Infertile to know what she can or can’t handle. Don’t hide things from her, but respect it when she says to you “I don’t think I am going to be able to handle that”. Your Infertile knows when her good days and bad days are, and what she can or can’t handle. But do invite her, give her the choice of saying no. And then respect her to know that sometimes she needs to protect her own fragile soul more than she needs to fulfill social obligations.
6. The level of involvement. Infertiles differ in the level of involvement they engage their Good Friends in. Some, like me, are pretty open about the whole thing. Every Friend and their Mother knows when I am going in for ER, ET or whatever. Other people prefer to keep their infertility private. Find out what your Infertile prefers and operate at the level she feels comfortable with.
7. Which brings to me to my final point. If you don’t know how to act, ask. I love that my friends ask me how I want them to act around me. They also know that if they ask the question “how is it going with your treatment” I will either tell them or I will say “irritating, I don’t want to talk about it now”. They totally respect that and don’t push. I have great friends.

Day 1 of (new) Progesterone

I didn’t know that the Prometrium was a pill like thing…that you stick up the, uh, ya. Here’s a visual:Endometrin

I had to buy panty liners for the first time in I don’t know when, maybe 10 years! So, we’ll see what happens. Also I got another peak on my monitor this morning, not sure if that’s normal but at least I got one yesterday which I know for a fact was positive! If anyone is reading this…question: if I’m taking the suppositories, can we still have sex? I didn’t know that if they’re in there will they come out or will it interrupt the medicine release or even effect the sperm. That’s something I really need to find out.